Thursday, June 25, 2009

Bipolar Online Support Groups

Sorry everyone I've been going through some crazy stuff lately. Thought I might have to go to hospital there yesterday. It's been crazy around here, I think I'm depressed and manic all rolled into one. I can NOT handle both of my kids right now so one is visiting Grandma. I'll talk to my doctor (or at least his receptionist) tomorrow.

Anyways, wanted to point to some Online Bipolar groups that have been helping me lately in case others are in need:

CafeMom BipolarMoms - this is only for CafeMom members and to be a member you must be a mom. But it's been VERY helpful.

CafeMom BipolarDiaries - same deal as above.

DBSA Bipolar Forums - from Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance, lots of members, great help

Bp Hope Ning Community - Ning communities are great. This is by the creators of Bp Hope Magazine. Forums, Groups, Blogs, Pics and more.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Self-Esteem

I've known I've had low self-esteem all my life, but I've realized recently that my self-esteem is almost non-existent.

What do you do when your self-esteem is so bad that you honestly feel that others are more important than you? I don't agree with any compliments people give me (except when I'm manic) and I feel like others should always come before me. I'm just not that important, that's how I feel. I'm sure most of you can identify with these thoughts at least somewhat.

The problem is, I only feel like I'll be important and worthy if I "succeed" which doesn't necessarily mean lots of money and cool job to me but I've been told that my expectations are way to high before. I really don't think I'm asking too much of myself but others seem to think so, both the average person and the "professional."

I've taken a self-esteem class and it didn't help because I didn't agree or believe in the statements we were told. Those bill of rights and such, I just don't feel they apply unless I've "succeeded."

Anyone want to weigh in on the subject? Feel free. Remember you can always post anonymously if you don't want to be connected with a blog or online identity of yours.