I'm back on Seroquel for now...

The last few weeks have been rough. My lack of meds has really taken a toll. I was anxious, irritable and raging internally at times. I was also a bit depressed at the same time. So my doctor and I decided I needed a little something. I'm on 50mg of Seroquel at night. When I become pregnant I'm to stop taking it immediately and we'll try med free again. If I have problems again while pregnant, we will take them one at a time and figure out what to try then. I may go back on Seroquel or try something else, it depends on what symptoms I'm having.

I was feeling like a failure at first, because I wanted to do it med free but I've since come to my senses a bit. Getting pregnant and staying healthy are my priorities and if I need a little medicine to do that, great.

I've also been thinking a lot lately about the standards we set for ourselves so I'll probably be doing a post on that soon.

Going off my meds to get pregnant

With my doctor's help I'm tapering off my meds so I can get pregnant again. I'll be med free starting Nov. 22/09. I was on 300mg Seroquel XR, 400mg Tegretol, 25mg Lamictal and 1mg Clonazepam daily. I'm down to 50mg Seroquel XR daily and on Saturday I take the last pill.

I've noticed a bit more depression and some more anger and frustration (which the Seroquel normally helps with) but so far so good.

I'll keep everyone updated.

Saphris Approved for Schizoprhenia and Bipolar 1

Saphris an an atypical anti-psychotic created by Schering-Plough which has just been approved by the U.S. Food and Drug Adminitstration (FDA). I don't know if it's available in Canada or will be come available.

More Info is Available: http://www.fda.gov/NewsEvents/Newsroom/PressAnnouncements/ucm177401.htm

Struggling with Anger and Frustration

I have been really angry and frustrated lately, especially when it comes to my kids. I'm yelling a lot and feel like such a bad parent. I try to hold off and count to 10 but I just can't take it. It seems like they NEVER listen to a word I say and I just want some time to myself, to do what I want for a change.

I'm thinking I might need to go back on anti-psychotics. I was using them at one point to control these types of feelings.