Thursday, January 28, 2010

I'm back on Seroquel for now...

The last few weeks have been rough. My lack of meds has really taken a toll. I was anxious, irritable and raging internally at times. I was also a bit depressed at the same time. So my doctor and I decided I needed a little something. I'm on 50mg of Seroquel at night. When I become pregnant I'm to stop taking it immediately and we'll try med free again. If I have problems again while pregnant, we will take them one at a time and figure out what to try then. I may go back on Seroquel or try something else, it depends on what symptoms I'm having.

I was feeling like a failure at first, because I wanted to do it med free but I've since come to my senses a bit. Getting pregnant and staying healthy are my priorities and if I need a little medicine to do that, great.

I've also been thinking a lot lately about the standards we set for ourselves so I'll probably be doing a post on that soon.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Update on Me

I've been off meds for 1 month and 2 weeks now. I'm definitely starting to notice a difference now but I'm perservering. I'm a bit more angry, frustrated, anxious, paranoid and I don't sleep as well but I'm also enjoying not feeling drugged. I know this is not an option long term but I'm certainly going to enjoy going to sleep when I want for now. If I don't get pregnant soon or being pregnant doesn't make my moods a bit better (it has in the past) then I'll ask the doctor for a little something.