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I like to talk about psychosis- I want people to see that it has been around forever and that it's a very normal part of many mental illnesses, especially bipolar disorder- and yet it freaks people out. If you've ever been psychotic, it freaks you out too!
Here is a brief definition.
Psychosis is defined as a loss of contact or break with reality, which shows itself in a number of different ways including the following: paranoid thoughts- is someone talking about me, looking at me funny or following me? Hallucinations- where you see, hear or smell something that isn't there. Such as a rat running around a chair or hearing a voice that says, "Julie, you need to get out of this store!" Suicidal thought such as, 'Take that gun and kill yourself," are psychotic. I had my first p sychotic thoughts in the form of hallucinations- when I got stressed and I was standing on a street corner- actually that doesn't sound too good- when I was waiting for a cross walk light- I saw myself walk into the street- and get hit by a car. My body would fly in the air and land right on the street in front of me. It scared me a lot. I used to call these visions 'death images' because I didn't know what they were. I thought everyone had them. I used to see a lot of dead bodies and severed hands when I walked in the woods too. That is just one symptom I had. These are all psychotic hallucinations.
Then there are delusions- where you have very unrealistic or even bizarre beliefs. I once drove by a beer commercial billboard and thought, "Is that a message for me? Did I do something wrong with that beer last night?' I would never drink that nasty beer anyway- but it seemed real. Psychosis is basically your brain going wonky- all of the chemicals and neurons that normally process information correctly start to process information both internally and externally falsely. What is hard to explain if you've never been psychotic is how real it feels. For example, when I get paranoid, I really believe it. Even if there is absolutely no information to prove that the feelings are real. Paranoia was always really bad for me in a classroom setting.
I've learned to manage my psychosis by keeping away from my triggers such as large groups, arguments and messing with my meds. I know the first signs that I'm getting sick and I talk myself out of it. If a voice tells me I have to leave somewhere, I say to myself, "Actually, I don't. That is just a voice and I'm not listening." I can work around it now- and I always know that when I get psychotic, I'm doing too much.
Mild psychosis can be self treated and major psychosis can be prevented by knowing the signs it's starting and getting help immediately. This may sound unrealistic, considering how serious psychosis can get, but there is usually a treatment window.
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